I never liked fall because of all the sadness that it holds for me.

I don't know how often I'll be updating this page, or if I'll ever update it ever again (not that I do now). I'm trying to figure out who I am and who I want to be and using this time to try and shape myself. This leaves me to question if someone is a way that is undesirable, and they change, are they not being true to themselves? Why does no one object if it's a change for the better? If that person changes, are they not being themselves any longer regardless of their good or bad habits?

What shapes a person to be who they are? Does their upbringing dictate how they will end up being later in life or is that person responsible for the way they are? The easy thing is to blame my parents, but the person who I want to be wants to take responsibility for my actions. Or am I so self-loathing that I want to believe I deserve everything that's brought upon myself?

I'm not the person I used to be. I no longer have energy. I have no inspiration. I no longer daydream. I'm only 22 and I shouldn't be like this.

Literally, right now, I'm in college. In Writing 1 to be exact. I have two art classes, so I hope to have some art up this year.

Gonna go before the teacher says something!

Leave me a comment and I will...

a) Tell you why I befriended you
b) Associate you with something - a song, a colour, a photo, a mental image, etc.
c) Tell you something I like about you
d) Tell you a memory I have of you
e) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you
f) You must copy/pasta this into your journal so I can comment

All my life I've been taught that one must work for the things they want and for once in my life, I'm willing to work for this. I've never wanted to work this hard for something, ever, and it scares me because this is the first time I've ever felt like this.

I just hope everything works out...

Summun git me sum HOUSE MD.


Oh ho ho ho ho.

PS- Vertigo today. Should I be driving? Absolutely. Also, who wants to drive me to Pittsburg Sunday?